As i go back to our house in San Mateo. I invited my sister to watch Harry Potter and Narnia. I was so excited. But my excited turns into depression. I was so upset when i found out that Harry Potter was not on the list on the movie list. I want to cry but it couldn't help. Harry Potter book 7 - part 1 ~ the only movie i didn't watch on the cinema. Record breaker. So we just watched Narnia -- the Voyage of the Dawn Treader. I want to chill on the Starbucks but my sister has no money. So, i don't get a chance to buy something there. We get back to our home. The sadness on my face was so obvious and they figured out that i am so lonely that night. It's time for sleeping but i can't sleep -- still unhappy. Because of that i remember all my problems so i cried for almost one hour, i guess and suddenly i realized that its morning. Still unhappy.My heart is down. I'm really sad right now.

Jesus, i'm so sorry. But, i don't feel the Christmas. I will not celebrate it tonight :(